June 2, 2008
Does anyone know what today should be?
Anyone else or is it only me?
It seems people just forget to them it is just another day
But for me, I just can't think of it that way
My heart aches and I can't stop the tears
I keep on wishing that you were still here
Others just don't understand why, today, I mourn
Today is a special day; the day you would have been born.
Here I have fallen on yet another empty due date. This was from my last miscarriage. A woman in my ward was due the same time and she had her baby this week. I have a sister-in-law who was due right after me as well and she will be having hers soon as well. Then there is me who 7 months after a miscarriage and I am not even pregnant yet. Not that I haven't tried. That is my other area that hurts so much today. I started my period. I was a week late and I had high hopes. Now I am just scared. For the first time in a while I really feel like giving up. I'm just so tired. I'm so tired of hurting and getting let down over and over again. I'm so tired.
