6 years old.... not a baby any more

Happy 6th birthday angel.  You wouldn't be little anymore.  You would be finishing kindergarten..... about to be in school all day next year.  I think about how alone your little sister Maron is at times and am sad at how different it would be for her if you were here.  Today was a good day for me.  The best birthday of yours I have had yet.  We didn't get to go to your grave to release the balloons because we live in Idaho now, but we still sent 6 balloons in heaven for you!
This past year has been a healing one for me.  I met a good friend while teaching Zumba in American Fork this year that we eventually figured out was the one who first worked on you when you were born at this time 6 years ago today.  He was the respiratory therapist that  kept you alive.  Today he has become a great friend of mine.  Cool coincidence that helps make that day not so gloomy!
I just couldn't sit around all day today so we got the kids out of school early and went to McCall on vacation for the weekend.  We are just spending time on the sandy beach and playing at the pool at the hotel.  It has been a nice distraction!  I still miss you like crazy and can't wait to have you in my arms again!  I love you angel!