Sisters

I officially know now that when one of my sister-in-law's come up and say, "Paige, I need to talk to you" it means, "I am about to tell you I am pregnant." Every single one of Stenson's sisters are pregnant. At first these words stung like they pierced my heart. I woud cry in front of them or I would cry later once they were gone. Towards the last of them I just became numb. Now it is just a fact. They are having a baby. Everyone is... but you. I will already be surrounded by it so what's one more?!? There are 9 of my friends from church that are pregnant, 2 of my best friends are and one is having twins. Not only that but so far every one of them is having a girl! I hate that it hurts me so much when I should be so happy for them. I guess it isn't that I am not happy for them, I am just sad for me. It is hard to watch others get what they want immediately when I have wanted it for so long and can't seem to obtain it. It's like watching others live my dream while I sit on the side lines and just watch. I am benched from the game and I REALLY want to play. I simply feel like I am missing out.